Now that you’re older life’s weighing on your shoulders

I queued a playlist of 10+ hours of music from my mid teens and have been clearance shopping for designer clothing for the past two hours. This is what happens when I am left to my own devices. June has been a month for sure and it’s not even over yet. I don’t think I can get through the next four days. A lot has happened, some good, some bad, and some very painful (both emotionally and physically). The most recent of such was my second bout of laser surgery. This is the third time I have had surgery on my mouth and it has kicked my ass. I feel like I broke my nose and it will fall off. I was also given more — a lot more bonding material on my bottom wisdom teeth so that as my canines inch (crawl) their way into the appropriate places they will not impede my bottom teeth. So when I clench my teeth (if I dare) I can fit my tongue in the gap between my top and bottom teeth, therefore I can not chew. I have been eating yogurt, oatmeal, apple sauce, baby food and soup for three days. My scale said I lost six pounds. That will be great for my goal of loosing weight. If I knew I had to starve myself, I would have done this ages ago. So basically I am one miserable fucking bitch. Watch out world Kiki is hungry and is not afraid to let you have it for no reason. And on that note it’s time to end.

All for now,

Title from: Makes No Difference by Sum 41